But wait!!! I thought this was classic!! I can tell I am heavier in this picture and I can see the santa's behind me on the shelf. Holidays/winter is ALWAYS hard on ME and once again it shows through my face. (Hate to admit it but this picture kind of represents what I have been feeling for a couple of days now.....why now??? Not sure??? But I have some ideas running through my head per usual!!)
I guess photo bombing by the selfie girl is fair play....
she got me this time and it appears as though we are having fun!
I do this.
I am all or nothing when I am eating well or badly.
I am all or nothing when I am exercising or feeling overwhelmed and sitting heavy.
I really want to be even on this road of life....no more ups and downs...
I guess its just a little of what I am feeling right now and
yet its what I seem to be ALWAYS feeling
as you can see by my past.
MY BIGGEST FEAR~
That I may have passed these feelings or genes unto my girls.
I don't want them to go through this wishy washy mess
of thoughts in my head that I continue to go through.
I love my life but I know I could LOVE it even more.