I thought I got my mojo back.
I had a super great, amazingly wonderful weekend of working out and getting stuff done. I was all set to get to body pump Monday night. (I even wrote it on the calendar! Then you know its a DONE deal!)
This was the week to be back at my Y after 12 days of NOT exercising there at all. I got home from work on Monday and ate a little something. I changed into my workout clothes. I had to drop Owen off at swimming and then I was Y bound.
(I even had Nicole set to pick up Owen after swim because I knew with the class I would be pushing it to get back there in time)
Guess what.....it had been a cloudy day and I could tell it was getting darker as I drove to the Y. And at that moment it started to rain....... know what else??? My whole body became numb as I drove. I could feel myself losing my mojo. My energy. My gumption. I knew I had plenty of time before my class because I had planned to walk around the track a bit before. Since I had the extra times I figured it wouldn't hurt to just sit in my car and wait out the rain.
*I played WordBrain on my phone* Have that app? It's a good one to keep ya thinking while passing the time.....yep, I digressed.
Anyway, with 15 minutes til class time the rain stopped. YIKES...was that a SIGN??? I headed in and headed up to the track. I started walking since I still had a few minutes and then someone poured blue paint all over me. Well, not really but I guess that's how it felt...as if someone had done so.
I just slowed. It was like I was walking and watching people but not really. People were sweating, they were laughing, some were in group classes and others on machines, they were in a groove and loving every minute of it. I felt like I couldn't breathe and the only place I wanted to be right then and there was OUT of THERE.
5 minutes to class and I exited down the stairs and out the doors.
I didn't know whether to cry, be super mad at myself, check myself into a hospital, drive home, go for a walk, or go to Target (Well duh?????) I called Nicole to tell her I didn't feel well and decided to skip my class so I would be able to pick up Owen. I thought about going for a walk outside ~ to clear my head and think ~ but I was nervous I would get stuck in another rain storm because they were popping up all over. I went to Target. I figured I could use the time to look for a Mother's Day gift for my mom. I didn't find anything but it did get my mind off of the blue paint thingy.
I started to breathe again.
I picked up Owen and felt more like me again. I don't get it. I have such issues with food, exercise, and people.....too bad the three of them often go together. ha!
Fast forward to today.........
In minutes I am going to change to get ready to go to the Y again for a cycle class. There is another chance of rain and I am not chancing it. I will be dropping Owen off again at swimming and I only hope tonight goes 1,000 times better than last night. (I also have Nicole set to pick Owen up after swimming in case I don't make it .....hope the similarities between the two nights won't do any damage to my mojo)
I am realizing I may need to make a doctors appointment and ask if any of these ups and downs I am feeling could be related to menopause and/or pre-menopause. Something tells me it may and something tells me its related to the clouds.
Clouds ~ Grey skies ~ and Stress. Not a great combination for me and my body.
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