It has been exhausting. I know first hand. I am not alone here though......its been a crazy month and as I have shared some of my feelings with other females around my age I have found that I am not alone. Whew! Just thought I was the only crazy one out there (As my family may have eluded to during recent rants. They may or may not have done this verbally, all it took was the roll of the eyes, the roll of the head, and the quick exit of the room to tell me this is true)
So what I have found out about women my age? They want to say what is on their mind and be heard. They want to voice their TRUE opinion on the way things are being run and want a change. They want help and they don't want to be thought of as demanding. They want to be more. They want more from others around them but not because they are weak or controlling but because they want all to be more equal.
Have I said every thing I want??? NO. Sheesh I am not THAT crazy!!!
Have I done whatever I want??? NO. I am still in MN.
Do I have to accept what others say if they say things that hurt me or unintentionally sound awful? NO. I can hear it and channel that energy into something else positive and remove myself from future situations that I think may cause stress or upset me. I am picking and choosing what I do more often. Others cannot influence my decisions.....I will make them. I will go if I want to and I won't go if I don't.
That pretty much sums up what I am feeling. It's time to be more ME. What ever that ME really is. ha!